Words fail me when I see you

Everyday morning , I wake up knowing that you ll be there waiting. I fill my head with words I'd like to tell you. Every feeling, every thought, every emotion that runs through my veins. I say to myself "Today's going to be the day I tell you!". I close my fist and think about how I should tell you , sugar-coated or riddled or maybe I should just lay it down there hoping you'd help me with it.

I think about it all the while , on my way to meet you. The moment is arriving. I take a deep breath, motivating myself. "Here we go" I mumble to the passing wind.

And I wait, patiently. I wait for you to break the smoke filled background of our confrontation. I wait for you to come and hear what I have to say.

There you are. With your bag and your friends , walking down to me , as if you were surprised to see me there , completely unaware of what is happening.

"Hey" , you say, and give that perfect smile that breaks the symmetry of your serene face.

And its over , that one word and one action that lost me ." It was almost pointless thinking about how to tell her". I think to myself . I force a smile to hide my embarrassment.

"Lets go?" she asked. I helplessly nodded knowing that there was no way I can go ahead with it now.

We turn around and we walk , as I hopelessly ponder over what happened for the past few seconds.

I smile at my stupidity, thinking to myself hoping she'd hear it , "Words fail me when I see you"